The deed is done, the plans are set, the kitchen remodeling is happening. Like… soon. Like scary soon. I thought it would take longer to get underway, but we ended up signing on at the first meeting and making all of our design decisions. And yes, I will take before and after pictures. Though… you know… maybe more after than before because really, the kitchen is awful.
I am getting my bookshelf in the kitchen. (Eating next to Harry Potter and Bilbo Baggins? Yes, please!) But re-doing the kitchen means taking down the twins’ artwork for the time being and only putting back up a fraction of what is in place at the moment because I’m losing display space.
Every surface in the kitchen is covered with drawings. Some of it is that I think everything the twins do is wonderful. (Because my kids are perfect, right?) But the rest of it is that those drawings make me feel as if they’re here with me during the day. I’m framing some of my favourites and formally hanging them on the new “art exhibit” wall. I’m designating some frames as the permanent collection (their totally cute babyhood stuff) and other frames as belonging to current exhibits (like from current art classes). But it will be weird to have the cabinet doors sans artwork.
To make myself feel better, I’m hanging three drawings next to my desk, too.
This is it! Last few days! Life from Scratch was chosen by Amazon to be one of the monthly deals for March. I would love your help in getting word out via social media. Pretty please?
IComLeavWe list for April opened a few hours ago. Join along. Celebrate spring with… comments.
Stop procrastinating. Go make your backups. Don’t have regrets.
Seriously. Stop what you’re doing for a moment. It will take you fifteen minutes, tops. But you will have peace of mind for days and days. It’s the gift to yourself that keeps on giving.
As always, add any new thoughts to the Friday Backup post and peruse new comments in order to find out about methods, plug-ins, and devices that help you quickly back up your data and accounts.
And now the blogs…
But first, second helpings of the posts that appeared in the open comment thread last week. In order to read the description before clicking over, please return to the open thread:
- “Platitudes” (Popcorn Ceiling Life)
- “Dinner is Served” (Stirrup Queens) — thank you, Lori!
- “My NonAdopting Story” (The Next 15,000 Days)
- “Hope & Healing” (Chronicles of an Adoption)
- “The Lessons She Teaches: On Time #WDSD15” (Invincible Spring)
- “My March” (Infertilityhonesty)
- “I’ve Lost my Muchness. Now to Find it Once More” (The Empty Cookie)
- “Stop Stereotyping My Children” (Twin Talk)
Okay, now my choices this week.
Life Begins again gutted me with a post written a week after closing the door on family building. It’s a raw post about the nevers. My heart stopped at this line: “I think about names I will never get to use.” I still think about the names I have tucked away. It’s a powerful piece.
A Little Bit More has a post about finally finding the courage to let family know that she is infertile, and having the news met with crickets. Not actual crickets… of course (yikes!), but awkward silence. It’s about seeking support and finding that it’s not there. A moving read.
Accio Baby is trying to construct a pyramid of understanding when it comes to infertility. At the top point are people currently experiencing infertility, and below that are several groups. It’s an interesting exercise, and the comment section is just as thought-provoking as the post itself.
Lastly, Lavender Luz asks a question that gave me pause. It’s an interesting question to a common situation (and yes, you’ll have to click over to see the question because describing it would sort of ruin the gut reaction), and the answer probably says more about us than I’d like to admit.
The roundup to the Roundup: Kitchen renovation, full speed ahead. Last chance to help me get word out about Life from Scratch. April’s IComLeavWe. Your weekly backup nudge. And lots of great posts to read. So what did you find this week? Please use a permalink to the blog post (written between March 20th and 27th) and not the blog’s main url. Not understanding why I’m asking you what you found this week? Read the original open thread post here.
March 27, 2015 7 Comments
Welcome back to IComLeavWe. It stands for International Comment Leaving Week, but if you say it aloud, doesn’t it sounds like “I come; [but] leave [as a] we”? And that’s sort of the point. Blogging is a conversation and comments should be honoured and encouraged. I like to say that comments are the new hug–a way of saying hello, giving comfort, leaving congratulations. Here is the vital information, pure and simple (a more detailed set of rules follows below the list):
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The April 2015 List
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March 27, 2015 Comments Off
A recent article on the New York Times blog finally released me to put into words something that has always gotten under my skin about egg freezing, and it’s this: if this option had been around when I was younger, and if I had been nearing the end of my twenties unmarried, I would have gone into debt for this because I would have known that if I hadn’t gone into debt for this and there had been a fertility problem down the road, I would have hated myself. I would have paid for egg freezing rather than fall down the rabbit hole of “what if” regardless of the fact that egg freezing is an invasive, painful, not-always-successful procedure.
Which would have led to me entering my thirties heavily in debt on my teacher’s salary. I wouldn’t have been able to save for a house, but I also wouldn’t have been able to save for fertility treatments if I actually needed to use my frozen eggs. Because it’s not just freezing your eggs. It’s using your eggs, and that cost is astronomical if it’s not covered by insurance. And it rarely is. But here’s the thing: if I married a man, that man would not have gone into debt to shelter his fertility. He would be entering our marriage without a $15,000 debt to his reproductive chances.
Image: Steve Johnson via Flickr
People argue that it’s just a choice: take it or leave it. And certainly, there are many pressures women face on a daily basis that women shrug off without a second thought.
But that choice — the egg freezing choice — presses buttons. It gets to our deepest insecurities: will I find someone to love me in time? Will they want the same things I want? Will we be able to create the family that exists in my brain? Egg freezing is about our mortality. It whispers you’re aging, you’re aging, you’re aging.
You’ll never be this young again.
Choices are wonderful things when making them actually frees or lessens you from problems in the future. But egg freezing isn’t just a choice; it’s a pressure. Because now, if you don’t take that option, the message girls are receiving is that they have no one to blame but themselves if they end up infertile in their thirties without any eggs tucked away. And THAT is a dangerous choice to have because the consequences of that choice are enormous; especially if the choice doesn’t pay off but even if it does. A $15,000 price tag is a huge weight around the neck of someone trying to start their adult life.
But moreover, what gives me pause with this choice is that idea of egg freezing parties, which sounds like a Tupperware party which always comes with such a huge pressure to buy. Because what is a Tupperware party except a woman entering someone’s house to remind a bunch of people that they don’t have it together, they don’t have neat kitchens, they don’t have proper storage that will keep the food they feed their family safe, but if they buy buy buy the product, they too can let out a sigh of relief that life is once again orderly?
Replace Tupperware with makeup parties or sex toy parties or jewelry parties. The point of all of those parties is to sell people a product, and the only way to sell the product is to convince the attendees that they need it. That they can’t live without it.
I’ve always been someone who could live without Tupperware or makeup or sex toys or jewelry. But my fertility? Having the marriage I want, the family I want? Those wants trace all the way back to when I would rock my dolls and play house. Those are deep wants that predate knowledge of cooking or beauty tips or accessories. I wouldn’t have been able to step back and look at the facts realistically. If someone gave me a convincing pitch, I would have signed on the dotted line.
If egg freezing was a guarantee, it probably wouldn’t give me pause. But it’s not. It’s just a chance. And something that has gone from being a wonderful invention out there for women who need a little hope during a health crisis has become a weight hanging around the necks of women. Women are asked to go into debt, women are asked to shoulder the cost of protecting the possibility of the next generation, women are asked to do something invasive — all for a gamble since every pregnancy attempt is a gamble, even when you’re young and using fresh eggs.
Sometimes you get lucky.
Sometimes you don’t.
This isn’t to say that women who are drawn to egg freezing shouldn’t freeze their eggs, but more, that women shouldn’t be pressured to make this choice. That the air of blame that surrounds it needs to dissipate. That egg freezing needs to go back into the doctor’s offices, offered out as a possibility by a doctor who is invested in a particular woman’s health history rather than a hard-sale performed at parties by strangers.
Reading that piece made me finally able to pull those thoughts out of the back of my brain and put them on the screen.
March 25, 2015 12 Comments
We’re starting the process of re-doing the kitchen. We’re going to resurface the cabinets, drop in a new counter and sink, get a new stove and hood, and paint the walls. We’re keeping it simple; I’m not really a fancy backsplash kind of girl.
Whenever I tell people our plan — to resurface rather than gut the kitchen and get all new cabinets — half the people nod, either saying they would take the same approach or they wish they had taken that approach when they gutted their kitchen and had to cook dinner out of a microwave for weeks. The other half cannot understand investing money into something that isn’t the kitchen of your dreams with unlimited choices in terms of style and material, and everything brand new.
But here’s the thing: the kitchen of my dreams is a simple, useable kitchen. Nothing exciting. We’re not looking for more or better storage because we like our layout and what we have now. Our cabinets just look worn, and the sink is falling apart.
The only thing on my wishlist is a bookcase to run across one of the walls where I can put copies of well-known books that people could grab and read during a meal. I love to read while I eat, and I want anyone who comes to our house to have books at their disposal in the kitchen in case they feel like reading, too.
I work from home, and the fact is that I need this done quickly because it is going to interrupt my work space. I want it done well, but I’m willing to trade unlimited choice and new for fast and neat. Again, the kitchen of my dreams is a fully functional kitchen with minimal disruption to my life. Hence why we’re going this route.
Obvious no one longs to be without a kitchen for weeks on end, but do you fall into the quickly-done-with-few-options camp or the long-time-but-ultimately-fills-your-heart’s-desire camp?
And would you want to eat in my kitchen if you knew you could grab down a good book?
March 24, 2015 29 Comments
Not sure what #MicroblogMondays is? Read the inaugural post which explains the idea and how you can participate too.
Going hand-in-hand with avoiding dreaded tasks like getting my hair cut are things that I refer to as Schrödinger’s problems. While I don’t love the dentist or doctor, I’m not scared of the tasks that take place in the office such as a cleaning or Pap smear.
The reason I put off going to the dentist or doctor or any like task is the idea that if I don’t go, I won’t know about a problem. I’m aware that like Schrödinger’s cat being alive or dead whether or not the box is opened, if I don’t go to the doctor, the problem still exists. In fact, it could even be worse because I didn’t address it in time.
But I put-off tasks that could potentially bring me bad news. If I don’t go, I can’t receive the bad news. The same thing holds true for social situations where I suspect the person may tell me something I don’t want to hear.
Do you avoid things to keep yourself from hearing bad news or do you like to know definitively where things stand?
P.S. Before my mother asks: I have dental and doctor’s appointments scheduled.
P.P.S. Before anyone states this, I know this popularization of Schrödinger’s thought experiment is a bastardization of his actual statements on superposition.
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March 23, 2015 40 Comments