Things Are Closer Than They Appear
You know know that optical illusion with side mirrors on cars where the objects you’re seeing are closer than they appear? That’s how my calendar feels right now.
When I make plans, dropping activities and events into future dates, they look completely do-able. Under what circumstances would I not be able to find an hour to help the kids write their d’var Torah for their B’nai Mitzvah? Or grab dinner with a friend? Or write a blog post? And then I’m figuratively driving up to the date, and that object still looks tiny on the calendar, but it’s looming large over my life. An hour for the d’var Torah? Where am I supposed to find an hour for the d’var Torah?
I feel like I am doing something very wrong. Like I used to know how to drive, and suddenly I’ve forgotten what all the sticks and pedals mean in the car.
I know that all of this will change by the end of the fall. The B’nai Mitzvah will be behind us. We’ll be settled into new school and work routines. A slew of holidays won’t be derailing my schedule. But even knowing the date doesn’t make the lead up to that end point any easier.
My calendar doesn’t feel like it’s made of paper anymore. It feels like the same weight as a stack of tires, dragging my head down.
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Ugh. I’ve been through seasons of life that felt just that way.
Here’s hoping for peace for you as you work your way through this busy time.
Happens to me the same way. When an event GETS on my calendar, totally doable. When the calendar gets to the event, feels like crazytown.
hey, at least you didn’t just have to go through prep-evacuation-go home-unpack-no electricity-and an unexpeted 10 day “vacation” from school.
good luck!
Things are always closer than they appear. Late last week I sat down with a friend, and we both mapped out timetables over the next year for some major projects we are working on. Already, I feel as if my first target date is closing in too fast. And I don’t have a really busy calendar either.
Good luck!
This is totally my work life. Ugh. Doesn’t help when kids get sick and you lose several days you were counting on getting something done.