I’ve heard both that the Sherlock episode that aired on Sunday was the last episode ever and that everyone would be open to continuing the series. I watched it, waiting the entire time for the ending so I could judge whether things felt neatly wrapped up. I decided that if things were neatly wrapped up, it would mean the series was over, and if there was a cliffhanger, the series would continue.
My mind only half-watched the episode. The other half was worrying about whether things would be ending.
I think we’ve established over the years that I’m not good with endings — even when I am looking forward to whatever is next. For instance, I start mourning books when I’m about midway through the novel. I start thinking about how happy I am with the characters, and how much fun it is to spend time with them, and how it will be sad when it all comes to an end and I will never ever find characters that I like as much as the characters in front of me. I think that even when I have numerous books lined up to read, all of which I am equally excited to tackle. I think that despite having proven myself wrong between the last book and the current book.
I don’t know why I do this every single time.
Sherlock is a weird show because there are long breaks between the episodes. The last one was last winter, and then the rest of the season unrolled over the last three weeks. Before that, you got three episodes every two years. So it’s not as if I’ve spent time with them, week after week, and now saying goodbye to them will mean an end to a routine.
Still, the idea of never seeing these characters come together in new storylines made me feel anxious through the whole episode. Movies come and go, but book characters and television characters get under my skin and start to feel like people I’m Facebook stalking; unable to interact with them but enjoying trying to figure out their life from a few photos.
It was nice to hang out with Sherlock and Watson for an hour and a half at a time.
And I have no clue if that was the last episode or not.