Closer to Reality
Thank you for all the kind words about the new book. I am really proud of it. If I was flippant when people offered compliments, it was only because my insider view of my life doesn’t sound like it matches the outsider view of my life.
When we only talk about accomplishments, you get a skewed view of who I am. So, yes, I did work really hard on the book, but…
I dread writing pretty much on a daily basis. I will put off actually getting down to work as long as possible, filing emails or reading blog posts, because writing is hard and I’m not really a fan of hard things. The only thing that gets me working is a fear of running out of time in the workday and a healthy dose of berating myself.
On that note, I didn’t finish my PhD. And I threw out all of my research about 13 years ago. So it will never happen, and I’m okay with that.
I can’t tie my shoes. I not only never mastered it as a kid, but I still can’t figure it out as an adult. Even when the twins patiently sit with me and try to teach me. When I need to tied a pair of shoes, I do so slowly, with bunny ears. Most of the time, I slip my untied laces into my shoes and walk around with untied shoes.
I lie about how many popsicles I eat and hide the sticks in the bottom of the trash can. I know in admitting this that Josh now knows, but I will continue to hide the sticks because I’m ashamed of my junk food jags.
I am a horrible flyer. I pretty much plan my life around trying to get out of flying.
I think we’ve also established that I suck at getting and staying pregnant. I also suck at carrying children to term.
Besides the popsicle consumption, there is nothing on this list that the people in my life don’t already know. And that’s sort of the point. We should have these healthy, well-rounded versions of our accomplishments and foibles. But so many people only see the really good stuff online. It’s up to us to balance it out. Not to put ourselves down, but to present something closer to reality.
Care to admit anything?