Trying to be Good
I decided to hop on the scale and see how much weight I’d put on over the last two years. Actually, to make it more painful, I hopped on the Wii, which not only tells you your weight but takes your nice, slender Mii and dumps that weight visually on your cartoon body just to make you feel more like crap. Your little cartoon body leans forward sadly, buried under instant rolls of cartoon fat. Thanks, Wii.
My weight had gone up over 10 pounds in the last 2 years, something I already knew since my pants ceased to fit. Seeing the number (and not the rolls of fat on my Mii) moved me to take action. So I’m back to measuring and exercising and mindfully eating. I’ve dragged back out My Fitness Frenemy.
It sort of sucks to see her again.
For the last two years, I’ve been trying to balance living with healthfulness. Because life is too short not to put foods that taste good in your mouth. Life is too short to turn down cake. And yet cake is not really a healthy food item that promotes general wellness.
The existence of cake feels like a trap.
I’m in a place right now where I can’t really partake in refined sugar. I know myself. I know my weakness, and my weakness is a pile of candy. It is easy for me to walk away from chips or popcorn or crackers. But once I break the candy seal and allow myself a Twix, I become like the mouse in that children’s book who gets his hands on a cookie and goes into a rampage ending in the whole house being destroyed. (Apologies, I only have vague memories of that book. Maybe the mouse doesn’t destroy the house. But you’re still not supposed to give the mouse the cookie.)
The key is knowing when is the right time to reintroduce sugar in a way that allows me to not miss out on the cake-y moments of life but doesn’t kick me down the slippery slope that ends with me packing on 10 pounds.
What is your downfall food?
I’ve gotten back into running. I do yoga 5 days per week (in the house, using the Yoga Studio app — I love that thing. I’ve been using that app for yoga for two years now, and it has changed my life) and run 2 days per week. I run indoors because I don’t like ever leaving my house. I’m like a hermit, in that way.
I’ve started playing through my podcasts while I run so I can clear some of them off my phone. It makes the time feel shorter since I’m listening to interesting stories vs. just staring at the clock. It feels like a win-win since the podcasts were clogging up my phone. It makes me kinda sorta less bitter about waking up early to exercise.
The other thing I’m also doing (cue awkward seque) is think out my next post for #MicroblogMondays. Which is tomorrow morning. I know, brilliant multitasking.