Everything Will be Okay
Last week, I was feeling unsure of something; that lack of ease that makes you feel as if you are skating along the bottom of the ocean floor with only a scuba tank to connect you to everything you know; the world of oxygen and light and easy movement unslowed by water. Recognizable animals moving through a recognizable landscape. When you’re on your belly, skirting the ocean floor, there is only this vague feeling of coldness coupled with a sensation of not knowing exactly where you are. Your location is obviously exactly where you are, but really, where are you? Sentences then get inverted like that, moving from statement into question. And around the blackness, you have no clue if you’ll encounter a benign school of seahorses or a slithering pile of sea snakes.
I don’t do well here.
I sent a quick email and got back an immediate response: all is okay.
It’s such a simple thing that human beings can do for one another; send a response back and put another person at ease. It’s amazing how quickly I was transported from the figurative ocean floor back into a familiar landscape where I felt comfortable. Where I no longer felt as if I was struggling to breathe.
If only the universe could do that for us too. With so many big and small things in life, I don’t need to know how everything turns out. I don’t need to know the fine details, the where-when-who-what-why and how. I just need to know that everything will be okay.
When things are clearly not okay, when life is unlivable in the moment, I just need the universe to throw an arm around my shoulder and say, “no spoilers but I promise, it will all be okay, Melissa. Around the corner is just seahorses.”
Image: Alex Griffioen via Flickr
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I’ve been going through a similar experience and although I have no advice…I just wanted to say you’re not alone ! There’s a bunch of us down there, not really seeing or feeling where we are, just hoping for a school of seahorses. 🙂
Take care!
I wish this all the time about infertility. I just want to know if this will work out. It’s the wondering whether we’re putting ourselves through all of this for nothing that is the hardest much of the time.
I don’t think that kind of heads up is asking too much of the universe, especially since my dreams last night were filled w/ sea snakes.
I’m sorry you were feeling so unsettled last week. Isn’t it great that suc a simple reminder of “it will be okay” can offer us such great reassurance? Sometimes we just have to take a deep breath and remember that. Or have someone remind us 🙂
This is so my life right now! I’m still waiting for the confirmation that it’ll be okay, but trying really hard to be optimistic!
I can’t even begin to tell you how I wish the universe would just let me know that everything will be ok. Because these days, I’m just not so sure. Thank you for posting this… it’s always nice to know that I’m not alone.
There’s a quote, “Everything works out in the end…if it’s not ok, it’s not the end” or something like that. Not sure I buy into it…but it’s a nice sentiment.
This is my life at this moment. In limbo. And I just need for the universe to tell me that it’s all going to be okay.
Thank you so much for this! Thank you, thank you, thank you! Thank you.
Me too. Oh, me too.
Yes! I understand. Had exactly this please-let-it-all-be-okay need to know feeling last week. Glad you got your all is okay. I got my (at least for now) “all okay” reprieve, too.
ps – Seahorses? I just love ’em. Besides being the coolest looking sea creatures, I love how the males carry the babies in their pouches and “give birth”. Sometimes I *wish* it were that way with people.
Here’s wishing you lots of seahorses around the corner. Too bad we can’t just whip out that crystal ball when we’re feeling unsure about things.
My coworkers and I are following a mantra similar- “its okay to not be okay” and its also okay to grieve however you see or feel fit.
Sorry to hear about the unsettled time and glad that you were able to get the response that reassured you.
I think of this, particularly at this difficult time in my life, when I’m thinking about what I would tell my younger self. And, so, I try to tell myself that now, knowing that in future, the me of today will be my younger self and I know I would have wanted me to tell myself that. You know?